It's finally the school holidays! The long awaited rest! However, I didn't really rest for the past 2 days. In fact, I went to attend a Track & Field course at SMU. We had lots of physical activities but it was nothing compared to those intensive ones I had when I was still studying in NIE and also the Instructor Rope Course that I took last year. However, my body was just too tired and worn out after the 1st day. Therefore, I came to realise that I'm old. Haha! Thanks to my dearest Huiling who confirmed that.
I admit that age does have a part to play, however, my inactive schedule also contributes to this tiredness. I may have run and play alot with my kids in school, but I did not work the other parts of my body. After a half day course yesterday, I decided that there is a need to tone up my body. I need to be a healthy and strong person in order to be an effective witness for Christ. My goal now is to build myself strong SPIRITUALLY, PHYSICALLY and EMOTIONALLY.
Spiritually
I was very very impacted by Pastor Kong when he shared the WORD last Sun. He told us how he used to rush home from school and inmersed himself in the presence of God. From his sharing, I could feel his tremendous love for God and his strong relationship with Him. His unfailing seeking of God everyday explains why he's so anointed and successful as a person. I want to be like him. I came back home constantly telling myself and God that I want to have the same kind of strong relationship with God. I know it's really time for me to be disciplined and serious in Him. It wasn't that I wasn't serious before this, but I think I can be more serious and urgent about my calling and my destiny. I want to come to a stage of enjoying God's presence everyday. Yes I admit I find it hard to come to Him everyday to seek His face. I think it's a phase that everyone will go through. However, perserverance will definitely bring us closer to God. Eventually, we will enter into His glory, and prayer will be such a joy rather than a dread. I'm motivated and determined to enter into the enjoyment stage of seeking God this time. No matter how long it is going to take for me to breakthrough, I'm not going to give up. I want to live a victorious life whereby everyday I lean on His strength. I'm tired of living a substandard life where I lived by my own strength. I'm tired of struggling in the pit. I want to get out of my own pit and keep walking in the ways of God. I want to live my best for God!!
Physically
I want to tone up my abs, arms and legs. Why? Of cos to look better! Haha! Most importantly of all, while toning up, I'll make myself stronger physically. I had been falling sick rather frequently nowadays. Probably because of my unbalanced diet and also lack of exercise. I hope to get myself to eat breakfast everyday and to exercise regularly. Hopefully by the end of this year, I'll have a nicer tone.
Emotionally
Those who know me well will know that I'm a very emotional person. I cry alot and I cry easily. Watching a touching movie will make me lose tons and tons of water. I know there is a need to control my emotions. I need to keep myself emotionally strong. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I don't want to cry anymore, but rather I shouldn't cry so easily in front of others. I have to learn to control my tears. Not just in crying, I realised I get angry easily this season of my life. Perhaps I'm not satisfied with myself and the people around me. Perhaps I didn't look at things in God's point of view. I'm a perfectionist though not to the extreme. When things do not go the way I expectedt it to be, I get angry. Was reading "Extravagant Worship" and got this from the book: "Determine to be joyful and glad regardless of the circumstances around you." This book seemed to speak to me during this season of my life. Learnt a lot from it. Get the book if you don't have one. Or borrow from me when I finish reading it.
In order to build up this 3 essential parts of my life, I know I need lots and lots of discipline in my time management. Don't be sad if I reject going out with you. This is a season that I want to build myself strong. A time for me to spend a lot of time with God. God showed me a verse last night in Jude 20:
"But you, beloved, building yourselves up on your most holy faith, praying in the Holy Spirit, keep yourselves in the love of God, looking for the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ unto eternal life."
